September 17th 1998

Dear Diary
I feel like dieing again. I thought things were going so well for me and Aj. I never knew that Amanda could just walk in here and make my life a mess. After she left Aj and i spoked but i didn't want to see him. I know i hurt him but i was only trying to protect my heart again. I never told him that i wanted to end our relationship but i just wanted to think things threw. As i sit here laying down on the couch on the bus i cry and cry and cry hoping know one will walk in and see my pain. Btw today is Aj and mine 2 month anniversary and he gave me a ring thats says Ally and Aj 4 ever.

Allisondra

Life was tough after the whole blow out with Amanda and it was almost time for my birthday. I didn't want to be 19 i didn't want to face people on my birthday but know i'm glad i did.

"Rita," Aj said. "I wanna do something special for her i mest up bad when Amanda came here and she's not talking to anyone but you and i'm really worried."
"I know you are and there is something that you could do," Rita said. "You know that her birthday
is in 3 days plan her a party make it really special will be in Mryle Beach you think of what you could do."
"Your right and i got an idea"He said.
"RITA I NEED YOU GOD GET HERE QUICK"i screamed.
"I gotta see her i'll be back"she said as she rushed to my room.
"God i'm not being able to do things anymore i can't even move with out him help me please i need
to be with him i need to let him know that i love him he doesn't know it anymore i fell it" i said well crying.
"Thats not true i love you so much my heart is breaking every min when i see you like this" Aj said.
"Aj why don't you talk to her i'm gonna go see if kevin or the other guys can do something on that
day we were talking about" Rita said as she walked out pf the room.
"Ally i do love you and i know that you love me but you have to try to get the whole thing that
happened with Amanda out of you i promise you that it won't happen again and i would never leave
like Sean did." He said.
"Kiss me please i need you please make me happy again"I told him.
"I will but not know i'm just gonna stay by your side and kiss away every tear that you have" he said.

Just being there with him helped me. He would stsy by my site night after night untill........

"happy birthday baby" Aj whispered in my ear.
"hi," i said "i don't wanna turn 19 i wanna just stay here with you"
"I;m sure you want to get out today i got a surprise for you tonight and you day all planed. he said.
"Fine i'll get up but i'm just doing it for my surprise"i said.
"Ok for a few hours you'll be going out with Leighanne, Ashley, Rita, and Claudia. You'll get to do whatever you want and then tonight you'll be surprised" he said.
"Ok i will but i need to take a shower and do things like that first" i said.
"You can do whatever you want" Aj said as he kissed me so deeply.
"Wow i felt that in a while"i said.
"And tonight you may feel more" he said as i walk out of the room.

I took a long shower. I really wanted to know what my surprise was and maybe this time it wouldn't be
Amanda. When i got out of the shower i got dressed and there was a note on my bed. it read....
Ally-
i love you and i will always remeber that we will always be together You and me were ment to be i'll see you when you get back.
love always
Aj

"Hey Ally ready to go"Rita said.
"Yes i am hey were actually are we going" i asked?
"To the mall were else it's your birthday and were gonna spend spend spend" she said.

So we left, when we go to the mall i thanked them all for doing this for me and being there for me when i was in pain before.

"No prob Ally your our friend and you and Aj are ment to be so don't worry about Amanda" Ashley said.
"Ya just what she said but i think we should get you something for tonight Aj said that you need something special so thets go"said Leighanne.
"Ok then lets go" i said.

We headed off to forever 21. I steped in there and found the perfect thing.
"Hey guys what about this" i asked?
"That is perfect" Rita said.

I picked out this short maroon dragon dress with a black jacket.

"You are gonna look so hot tonight" Claudia said.
"Thank you but i have to go to a record store i wanna get a knew cd" i said.
"Sure lets go" Said rita.

We headed off to Sam goodies and i found the cd i wanted it was the new Tori Amos cd that i was in need of. After i bought my cd we headed off to Victoria Secret.

"know what are we doing here" i asked?
"Looking" they all said.
"How do i get the feeling Aj put you 4 up to this" i said.
"you just know your man well enought." Rita said.

We walked into the store and i found matching under wear for my dress. I also got something special for a special accation i hope would happen with me and Aj soon.

"I saw what you bought" Rita said.
"So" i said while i gave her a smile.

I think 2 hours went by. Then i heard Leighanne's cell phoen ring. Then she answered. She had a small convo and then said that we had to be heading back b/c my surprise was soon and i needed to get ready.